The thing is Therapy helping me but not in a way i am supposed to be helped. See Currently i am having some good communication with some woemns because i choose to stay away from porn and especially masturabtion with the help of a psychologist. I am glad I was able to stay away from all that and i am still ont he path for like nearly 5 months and Its a great thing. It was astonishng thing I was able to helo my brother also in this hard time with the little wisdom i gained from fighting my demons and thats a great thing.
I was able to understand my brothers issue as well. I was able to dont take myself too seriosuly as taking myself too seriously doesnt bear any fruit. I was able to understand negative relationships at workplace thats destriyng my sanity..The mainthing i like about therapy is that when you dont go for it for some months to years, your mind get a lot better from a session afterwards. but if we choose to stay on it then its effectiveness go. Its a freeaking placebo but this placebo effect can little bit uplift at times breief when you think nothing else will work..
it comes from a belief that someone will understand the issues youa re facing and i still rememebr i wastaking lot of medicines and having no big results. And already thi steve was told me to seek therapy but see the cycle both steve and sjk both of them hurt me and then force me to seek therapy like they were able to convince me i did something wrong to them and they themselves dont take therapy. Its really crazy and why i can see its because they smell weakness and when they see that in me they ask me to seek theray so that they can better control me as they think i am not strong enough to bear their shit. Thats what hapens when steve believed he can emotioanlly hurt me and abuse me i just exposedabt my traumas and he realised that it will be easy for him to control me if i took therapy and tahts wy he circled me for sometimes.
I was stupid to think thaat psycatrist is not therapy but somehow its just a acknowledgement that i have a problem or something and this is what the Bhoothaganas are looking for .Weaknesses. They feed on that like vampires. appear fickle minded infront of them then they will use me for surre..
And I learned narcissts can give money and many things to get emotional attention becauase they are so empty inside. but they take the soul from you. your autonomy and your way of thinking they dampen you,they abuse you racially and verbally. they humiliate you infront of others when steve told me “i will beat your indian ass “that was the bigegst racist thing i ever heard he was a psycho. and he will always be. he is just a crazy waste. and there is nothing abt it.they are that such creepy creatures that have nothingin their life to be happy but feel happy when they hurt someone for their ethnicity,,low lifes thats what steve is and all others.