I am having many stress related issues in daily basis which makes me so crazy and stresed out but one thing i realise from all that is that watching porn in moderate amounts is not so bad for me. Like if i think that porn is bad for me then its bad its boring but i feel the cravings even though i know it is bad still i feel the cravings . is till have no idea why it is like that. but it is what it is. I expeiance daily war to choose between porn andno porn and nowadays most day i choose porn because i think its fun. my life is s boring without any relationships, outings and new opportunities it was all simply focused on me going to some temples and reading politics i am becoming old as well. so there is no particular neex for me to do anything
So if i think whats bad for me i can say that touching myself is bad for me. It gives that Sinfull Drive of Flesh but if i can use a chastity device then i dont feel i am tken up by my indriyas. ofcourse chastity devices have friction but the thing is the idea of doing sex with my own body seems to be restrained atleast physically with the ue of a chastity device and belive me its very hard even that. Using chastity devices to control senses is very effective when we feel there is no power we have.
The drive to touch my foreskin is still so high even with the use of a chastity device but its not so big. the indriyas tha means eyes ,touch and all. i have heavy drive to watch porn while i see interesting women and the reality is sense control is itself very very hard. And the urge towatch something over and over and the urge to touch myself over and over is so large for me. it even has strong roots of depression potential.. I know because i skipped many intimate exposures in my life i became somewhat underdeveloped when it comes to dama.
Also about mind control of overcoming porn,i had been in religious groups that claim to help me stay way from porn by doing dervice and stuff. but the reality is what they do is not mind purification, what they are doing is mind stopping, or thought stopping which means thoughts are paused by threat . this threat is directed most probably by many ways like triangulation. so the part of the mind that has love and lust is actually arrested by someone else for us. thats not satsang i beleieve and there is no aura in it. you will end up being a person who gots controlled and ruled by something you never even now/ giving power over to someone that you think is god like.
when you realize that they are bigots, that they themselves watch this stuff in moderation but blame others for having a peak or slip and then making them feel guilty about it. such creatures exist and they feed on others.thirdworld guys from first world countries doesnt mean they are first class.